Today aka First day in school, can only be described in one word. SHITLOAD.
Usually many bad things that can or ever happened to me was another person's fault.
But this, is my own idiotic doing. My own moronic slacking attitude that caused me to fall into this stupid fucked up oblivion. If you still don't understand, this is about my new class.
First of all, went there to find out that BOYS OUTNUMBERED GIRLS. Great news. Then realized the girls there most of them below average. OMFG.
Went to class and sat with Muhaimin. I started thinking all over about how and why I stupidly slacked in secondary 2 to get my ass into this shithole. Then I became desperate. I started fantasizing. About people and friends I took for granted last year. Yapster , Martin , Pao , Alex , Yuan Teng and so on. Realized that without them life really stinks. So was hallucinating, and I thought I saw A7X outside the classroom.
Reccess was better. Hung out with Pao and Yapster. After that it all went downhill.
If anyone's wondering why I'm suffering so much its only because of this :
Because of the extremely strong bond we had in sec1 and 2 that in a different environment I compare them to you guys and their shit. I have this very weird feeling inside, like I just lost something important to me but I don't know what. I can't imagine going through two long years with these people in my class. I can't resist the urge to transfer to another school , migrate somewhere far away and never come back or hope someone kills me.
~Reyin,signing off
